supremely happy people. they are REALLLLY annoying.

i was trying to figure out why exactly they bug me so much, and i came up with chaos.

like, the universe is chaos. i dont know if there is a supreme ruler that makes sense of the chaos, and gives us the safety of order, i just kind of accept that the universe is stupid sometimes. it'll screw you over and then accidentally give you something good later on that wouldnt have happened if it hadnt screwed you over. haha, stupid universe

but anyways. chaos is integral to me. its the reason i feel like i have to devote myself to helping others, because there are some people the universe never messes up on, some people who never have a chance.

if someone is supremely happy, they are ignoring chaos- they are ignoring that there are millions of hungry, millions of poor, millions of people living in fear, lacking freedom to live their lives. maybe they do know about it, maybe they've done something about it, but still.

i hope to never be supremely happy. i always want to saddened by the fact that some 96 percent of the world doesnt have the same opportunities that you do, because that will keep me going, and keep me fighting for them.

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